Some days are tougher than others...

Yes it is true some days you can almost forget you have cancer and all the other things you have wrong with you, but then there are the days that even a genius could not ignore the nausea, pain and just not feeling good. I try to push myself as far as I can each day and try to make it as normal as normal is these days, but then there are days like today that I just don't care, I am tired of fighting nausea, I am tired of the pain that won't go away, I am frightened of the pain I am having in my belly, I am tired of sticking my fingers and testing my blood sugar every day, I am tired of watching what I eat, I am tired of losing weight even tho I am forcing myself to eat the 5 or 6 times a day like I am supposed to. I am tired of everything today...I guess it is time for me to go back to bed for a while and maybe when I wake up some of this stuff will have decided to give me a break today...one day, one day of feeling normal...I wonder if that is going to be in my future or am I going to feel like this forever? I'm sorry to complain but I had hoped to feel much better by now. Be grateful for your health, you will never know how important it is until you have an issue with it., show the ones that you love how much they mean to you, hug a friend, kiss your kids and be thankful for all the blessings you have been given, don't take anything for granted...life is fragile and can be gone in the blink of an eye, don't be filled with "I wish I had's" it will be to late by then and you can never go back. Health, happiness, peace & love...

Have a great day my friends...

I think we are going to be saying goodbye to the less humid days...as I stand at my front door I can feel the heat and humidity already building up and it is not even noon. I guess today will be an inside day for me at least when it starts getting hot. It is funny I can't take the heat, but when I have the air conditioner on I have to wear a sweater as I can't take the cold either, my body definately hates me. I am not complaining, at least I have air conditioning, I feel sorry for all the people who have to suffer in this heat without one. This morning has been very pleasant I have watered my weeping willow, tomatoes and the porch plants getting them ready for the heat of the day. I have cleaned out the fridge and emptied the dishwasher and am getting ready to load it up again from last nights dishes, there is a load of laundry in the washer and another ready to go...there is never a dull moment around here. And if I get the day to day chores done I always have all the "stuff" to go thru and sort that I have been squirreling away in my bedroom. One day soon I want to have a yard sale or go to the flea market and sell what is good and usable...just waiting for cooler weather for that. I want everyone to say a little prayer for all your friends who may be in need, rather they have a medical condition, a financial situation, are hunting for a job or are just having a difficult time please remember them. Be thankful for everything you have been blessed with and enjoy every day, life is a precious gift to be lived and shared, not wasted...it can be gone in the blink of an eye...tell someone you love them, hug a friend, kiss a kid and laugh, it is the best medicine! I wish you health, happiness, peace & love my friends!

What a beautiful day...

What a beautiful day! It is so nice outside that it makes you want to go run thru the yard and roll in the grass. The birds are singing, the sun is about to rise and it is nice and cool, it also feels like we have finally broken the nasty humidity. The rest of my porch plants and some of the house plants are gonna love today, I got more potting soil yesterday and they get new soil & bigger pots today. This amazing weather does something for my spirit, I feel renewed and am so grateful to be alive and able to enjoy the beauty of this marvelous life. Don't let this amazing day go to waste enjoy it. Take a moment to go sit outside, close your eyes and just listen-hear all the wonderful little creature sounds around you. Take a deep breath and just feel the freshness of life flowing into your lungs. Now go do something fun and don't let this day pass you by.

Positive thoughts=positive energy=positive outcome! Health, happiness, peace and love my friends!!! 

Good Morning everyone I hope you have a great day...

It is pleasantly crisp this morning and I think a little less humid, thank goodness they say one more day of heat and then some relief. I sit on the front porch in my swing, coffee in hand, I can hear the birds singing the dogs are barking (of course) and the neighborhood is waking up. It is the early morning hours that I can sit and reflect upon the day and just enjoy the wildlife waking up and starting to move around. I am still not able to do things as quickly as I used to, but if I stick with it I can still do just about anything I want to do. It took me several days to move the stuff back on my front porch and get the sheers up, but I stuck to it and now I have a wonderful sitting area. I can sit in my swing which is at the end of the porch, sort of hidden away and just watch everyone go by, or I can sit at the table, Steve painted and put a new top on, or I can sit in the rocker at the nearest end of the porch and see all my beautiful flowers and trees, plus see everything that is going on. I love the country and all the beauty it provides naturally, to many people just do not appreciate the simple laid back life of country living but I can not live in the hustle and bustle of city life. I am so thankful for my home and all the blessings I have been given. I love my husband he is so wonderful, he takes such good care of us and makes sure we have what we need, I do not know what I would have done without him this past year, I am especially grateful to have him in my life not just as my husband but as my best friend also. No matter who turns away or doesn't call he is always there, he is terrified he may lose me but he hangs in there with me good news or bad, crazy or sane...and believe me he has dealt with his share of crazy moments. When you get cancer they don't give you an instruction book on how to act, so I will admit I have my moments. The goal is to have more good moments than bad and I am finally getting to that point. All I can say is positive wins over negative, positive thoughts lift you up and make you a pleasure to be around, negative thoughts and actions only drive people away. Remember to be thankful for your loved ones, your health and all you have been blessed with. Live life to the fullest, it is the greatest gift do waste it or let it pass you by. Hug a kid, smile at a stranger it may be the only kindness they see today, and go out there and jump right into the middle of making it a better place. Health, happiness, peace & love my friends...

Hot & humid days...

Hot & humid days drive me indoors with the air conditioning on. Thank goodness we are supposed to get a break from this weather tonight...less humidity and better temps coming our way for tomorrow and the weekend. The last several weeks have been a little more difficult for me than usual. I have been trying to get a lot of the house work caught up that has been neglected for way to long. It seems that I work a day then I have to rest a day, but I am keeping on it and finally some of the clutter and mess are getting cleaned up. I sure don't want to get turned in to "Clean House or Hoarders"...and I am afraid I was headed that way. Well maybe not that bad, but certainly worse than usual. Be thankful for your health, the people who love you, food on the table everyday, a comfortable bed to sleep in and a home to call your own. We forget about all the ones that are in need, so please take a moment and be thankful for all you have been blessed with and say a little prayer for those less fortunate. Hug a kid, smile at a stranger and be kind to those around you...
Positive thoughts=positive energy=positive outcome!

Health, happiness, peace and love my friends, I love you all and am grateful for the blessing of each of you in my life.